Today is my last Thursday afternoon nap. Next week I go back to working full time. Evangeline is off to preschool. I don't know which I find scarier. I'm feeling really good, but by Wednesday night, I usually fall asleep around 8:30. Also, earlier this week I had the nosebleed to end all nose bleeds. Probably unrelated to cancer or Zevalin (right?), but it makes me think-- if I've almost run outta' numbers on my personal calendar, do I really want to spend my days at the office? If I'm not going to make it to Evangeline's wedding, I don't want to miss a moment with her now. That thought has led me to some pretty creepy behaviors, like watching my daughter sleep and counting her inhales and exhales.
Whatever. No matter how misty I get about time away from the little one, it has to happen. The medical bills are out of control.
As far as chemo type side effects: This last week the hot flashes seem to have dried up. So that's a plus. And I've gotten a few little pimples on my nose which makes me feel like my body is acting closer to normal. I've been jogging with the baby fairly regularly. OK, "jogging" might be an exaggeration. I've been doing sorta' a shuffle behind the jogging stroller. Stop your snickering-- it counts as exercise.
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